Levels of "Zone"

By ~wolfslave

The level of 'zone' that Master David takes me to with the rope is so far different than that which he takes me to with a flogging or other 'impact play'. From the moment the first loop is tightened around me, i begin the descent. I have identified at least 4 distinct levels of descent throughout the process.

The first level, as the initial knots and loops are being taken is sort of like twilight time (in my tradition, this is called "liminality"). It is that transition period from real time to alternative time and space. It is very similar to standing outside just before dawn and being there as the sky brightens and the stars fade away. Or in the evening as the light fades and the shadows descend on the world. At this level there is yet still a fairly solid connection with real time. I am still aware of people in the room, speaking in soft voices; aware of the temperature in the room and whatever other play may be going on simultaneously; aware of the nearness of His body and aware of what He is doing as He progresses with the tie.

At some point, there is the realization that Master has completed the tying and as He begins to caress my body and perhaps tug on the rope at certain strategic places, or inflict a bit of pain, perhaps pinching the nipples etc, i feel another drop to a new, "deeer" level. The room and anything else going on in it drops from consciousness, including voices and even the existence of anyone other than Master and myself. I become the receptacle of His energy. He fills me completely with His presence and His essence. At no other time am i as completely aware of His ownership of this body. It is at this time that i realize that my only reason for existence is for Him and His pleasure.

Right about this time, i am aware that i am still standing and it becomes very difficult to continue to do so. All of me is floating somewhere and it becomes a challenge to remain upright and support myself. If at this point, Master does not lower me to the floor or a chair, i tend to remain at this place. When Master lowers me to the floor, i am released from the responsibility of staying in this 'world' enough to remain erect and the next level is achieved. As i feel the solid flooring supporting me, my mind and spirit are free to wander, my body is released from the need for any tension and it becomes basically non-existent. As i wander, my level of consciousness continues to deepen and i begin to lose the last shred of contact with 'the real world'. The spirit and essence of my Master travel with me. Often, i never go deeper than this because doing so means leaving Him behind. And there are times that i cannot bear to separate myself from him. Of all the times he has tied me, i can count on one hand the number of times i have gone to the next level.

It is... total separation from everything and everyone in this world, including Master and even including myself', and traveling into the "Otherworld". I don't know if you are aware of alternative spiritualities or methods but at this level it becomes what could be identified as a Shamanic trance journey. So what do i "do" while in this state? Well much of that needs to remain private but i generally am seeking "something". I have companions who attend me on my journey. Master is "there" but he is not "Master".

The coming back process is very much an exact reversal of the levels. Making the initial step back to conscious thought is without a doubt the most difficult. Sometimes... the process is even painful. But once i reach the level where i become aware of Master as The Man, i race back, anxious to feel the comfort of his arms and to assure me that i am once again "whole".

~wolfslave is the slave and life partner to Master David of Northeast Oklahoma